Choices...

     I haven't posted anything in a while, even though I feel a strong need to write. What is there to write about?
One thing that has crossed my mind recently, is how certain people in your life can affect what kind of person you are, and what you strive to be. I don't mean to get all inspirational here, but it's true.
I also realize that I find it hard finding people my age I can tolerate. It just seems like allot of my generation are just mindless robots with no real opinions, ambition, or individuality. Though don't get me wrong, there are some pretty spectacular people in my life.. but only a handful of them are my age. I want to be around people who inspire me. Not people who make me start to loose faith in humanity.

I think everyone has an inner self that is completely different than anyone in the world, but it's just allot of people are so caked on with this worlds "expectations" and influences, that they slowly just give up and conform to whatever other people want them to be. At least allot of people are that way.
If we could all just strip away all of that, think of how much MORE interesting this world would be. There are already allot of neat people, but I'm mostly referring to allot of my generation.

Sometimes people are different then they appear to be on the outside, maybe humans are just afraid to show whats on the inside sometimes.
I just hope I can hold on to the people who make me happy. And hope I can get to know the new ones better, because so far they seem pretty spectacular.
I don't think you should hang on to the people who make you miserable all the time. Hang on to the ones who make you want to be better and make you feel comfortable with showing the colors you have....

Speaking of the colors you have! ^.^

Anywho... I think I'll finish this off with another song that is definitely one of my new favorites.

The video is equally as awesome.
For me this song and music video, are just... Hauntingly beautiful. It's really expresses the hurt and emotion that can come from a situation like this. They both know it wont work, but both feeling equally hurt and yearning to make sense of their emotions.

Every facial expression he makes is so raw and beautiful.
Her Voice has just enough angst and plea. And when she moves towards him and sings.... -shivers- There is just so much emotion in this. I love it.

Kaila is being... SOCIAL?

So, as I promised, I will tell you about my trip to Asheville/The Biltmore... But first, a story!... Sort of.

Ok so I thought I was a fairly social person... Apparently not, apparently I am an ANTIsocial butterfly, my parents brought this to my attention. Sooo, the last past week I've been getting stuff done, and then being social. Turns out, it's been pretty fun! Iv'e done allot. I just didn't realize I was aloud to be constantly goofing off with friends... I'm also attempting to plan a party of sorts. We'll see how that goes...

And now for the trip to Asheville. First was the Biltmore house ------> This place.
Now since my last post was extremely long, I will try to keep this one short and to the point... Hopefully I wont go off on a long rant.
Back to Asheville!
So we went to the Biltmore, mostly to walk around the grounds and enjoy Fall, we even had a picnic! Which was ruined by a giant lawnmower directly in front of us. 8000 acres of land, and you choose the one spot there's a picnic... Nice goin mower guy.

Well that was close I almost got onto a rant! Quick on to another topic!
Next we went walking downtown Asheville, which I absolutely adore. Especially on a Friday night. There are street performers, amazing places to eat, and just cool people in general. Also, on Friday nights in downtown Asheville, there are drum circles, and ton of people dancing in the middle. It's basically like a hippie dance club. So much fun! And unfortunately there's not really any good pics from that... But I'm sure there will be another drum circle, another day. 

Well There you go, an abridged version of the day. I'll post a few pics below!

Yes, we are silly. ^.^

Laying in the grass! (I don't think I needed to clarify that..)

Naked Lady statue!!! Huh, what? Move along...

Lots of walking...

The fabulous Megan! (Urban Outfitters) 

Emma. I'm gonna steal her shoes...

The one, the only, the amazing, REBEKAH!! <3

Drum circle! The drummers. 

Brace yourself for 2 months of updates!

If you do follow my blog, and care about what goes on in my life, once again I'm sorry for the lack of posts. But this will be a good long one with pictures! Yay pictures!

Ok Now where to begin... Ah yes! Dragon Con. As you may recall I was planning on going to Dragon con (Basically a giant geek convention) Well I did and it was AWESOME. I even got to meet Wil Wheaton, and my brothers wife Alex is obsessed with him, OBSESSED, and she was pretty freakin excited to meet him. 

There's a few things about dragon con, 1- Your eyes may be scarred by some of the cos players, who may have once fit into there costume but no longer do, and no longer should... But hey, dragon con is a no judge zone in that regard. Anything goes there..

2- You WILL spend all your money. There are at least 4 or 5 entire rooms filled with awesome stuff you can buy. I bought three die, a Jayne hat (from the show firefly), cat ears, and I think that's all, and I STILL spent almost all my money.. 

3- If you go, there is a restaurant in the hotel, that serves a thing called 'Dessert Nachos' O.O Yum. Here see for yourself. 

Ok the next thing that happened at dragon con, was a concert. At this concert was Paul and Storm, Jonathan Coulton, and Molly Lewis showed up with her ukulele! You might remember her from youtube here's her channel HERE. 

Now we waited in line a long time (not to mention putting up with annoying line cutters) so we were RIGHT in the front of the stage, so I was in prime positioned to get pulled onto the stage and get serenaded during Frogger! The Frogger Musical... and yes that DID happen. what you don't believe??? PICTURE TIME!  

Ok That seems like a good ending place for Dragon Con. 

Now what happened next?... Ah yes, the fair. Me and a few friends decided to go to the state fair this year, we bought the stamp thingy that lets you ride the rides over and over... and over. And we were off. I rode every single ride at that fair.. and see this is how fair rides work, they only go 1 of two directions, round and round, or back an forth. Oh wait there is one more option, back and and forth AND going round and round. Hopefully your not getting sick just thinking about it... I think I am.

ok here is a few pictures from the Fair. 

    Here's the group. My "Homies" if you will...

    Here's me and my friend Tucker Struttin. Work it, work it!

 And here's me and Megan on the Farris wheel!

    

And I have a ton more, but these will suffice.

Now the next thing that happened has to do with the fair. Some how through all the spinning and being slung about, my neck decided to get twisted into a painful knot of PAIN. I couldn't move it for like a week straight and it's STILL not fully healed. Now what happened was apparently the neck started to heal, but then there was still this giant knot on the side of my neck, so when we went to the doctors they said it was a swollen lymph node. They thought I had mono, which made my friends very suspicious of me... And I had to get a needle jabbed in my veins to test for it. Thankfully it was negative, and I'm mono free. Yay. But besides having a giant painful knot still there, I got a cold or something, and I'm JUST now getting better, and the knot is starting to go down. I now know the true definition of "Pain in my neck". 

NOW I missed a few things, so lets rewind a bit. During all this I went to the aquarium with my friend Lorna and her family, even though I had to be on drugs the whole time cause of the pain in my neck and when they said ooo look at that shark!! I couldn't look up... or over... or anywhere really. I kind of had to just move my entire body to look at things... It was still a great time, and I'm convinced I will one day own mini sea horses. I swear I almost died of the cuteness. Also me and Brenna (Lorna's older sister) ended up getting mesmerized by the sea turtle eating broccoli, seriously we were standing there for a good 10 minutes just in aw, while everyone else left us... OH and I almost forgot, I got to feed a stingray! ^.^ 

    My neck was in extreme pain at this point

Ok, We're almost done! 

There wasn't any other major events I don't think. Although here is the current updates for once. 1- We are going to the Biltmore house next week, that's going to be fun! and 2- I just bought some amazing things. And what do you know I have pictures! 

      First off these amazing boots! (Sorry these are all in black/white)

                 And yet another hat, as you all should know I'm obsessed with hats. I have allot. O_o

      And pretty freakin sweat leggings. Just sayin.

Ok I think I am finally done with this blog post, I hope you all enjoyed it! And I shall be back with updates from Biltmore soon! 

642 Things to Draw.

      So I recently stumbled upon a neat little sketch book, 

     called '642 Things to Draw'

Basically what it is, is a sketch book full of ideas and inspiration, what you've always dreamed of right?

it's just what it says it is, 642 things to draw. 

    On every page it give you something to draw, and a section to draw it in.

     I think it a great, especially if you find yourself not drawing simply because

   you don't know what to draw (Like myself)

                               

                                                        

I'm very excited to get started on this, and I'm thinking about starting a separate blog to document the whole process. Let me know if you think I should, or if you would rather me just post a few blogs a month with a few of my sketches from the book on this blog.

642 Things to Draw Blog

                                                                                 

Update on New shoes, and not so new shoes.

So, we'll start with the not so new shoes.
The day before yesterday, I was invited to go tubing. And I had to have shoes of some sort, or else the rocks would attack my feet. So, since I lack any sort of  'Water shoes' I opted for my falling apart converse.
Lets just say, I don't think they liked the water, and or being beat up by rocks all day.
Not only do they smell like death. They look like this...

oh well. They were good shoes, they served me well.... But wait don't think I'm going to throw them out! I'm going to be wearing these till they fall off my feet... Which may or may not be soon.

Anyway, on with the NEW shoes. As you will recall in my previous blog, I ordered new shoes (Vans old skools) And they got here today. (Thank God)
And, they are superb. They literally rock my socks... It's been so long since Iv'e had new shoes.
So, alas, I am happy.

Recent news, and expensive shoes.

So, I have exciting news. I got invited to go to Dragon Con with my Brother, and his wife *Squee* Yay! -Happy dance- It will be my first con, and I am super excited! Plus Wil Wheaton will be attending this time.
Which is exciting, because he usually never comes, because PAX is usually the same weekend as Dragon Con, and he's very loyal to PAX. However THIS time the dates got switched around, so we get the almighty Wil Wheaton! ^.^
We're also going to the Jonathan Coulton, and Paul and Storm concert the night before Dragon Con. -More happy dancing-


What else makes me excited? I ordered new shoes! Which is very good for me, considering I haven't had new shoes in roughly three years. So I finally bit the bullet and bought these -------> Vans Old Skool.
50 bucks. but I figure I'll have these for another three years, probably longer, so I'll deal with the cost.

In other news, I just ask two of my friends what I should blog about, one said to rant about how stupid Facebook is. I could, I could go on and on about it. But  that would be completely pointless, since we both use facebook regularly, despite the fact facebook is a poorly designed social networking site. I would love to get off of it, and possibly try Google+. But oh wait, there's an age restriction of 18+. And until that's changes, I'm stuck with questions, game app's, and girls self portraits, cluttering my news feed. Not to mention endless statuses ABOUT how lame facebook is... Do they not see how ironic that is?
-End of rant.

Fall approaches, I can feel it coming, and as much as I love fall, it means winter is also approaching. And I can only take so much winter. I hate the first and last part of winter. The middle is good, don't ask me why. It just is.
One thing that makes it ok though, is that I get to wear all my fall/winter hats! I love them, and I haven't worn them all summer. Not to mention hoodies and boots. Those are good as well. Now that I think about it there are allot of good things about the weather turning colder.. Then again it also means School starting soon, not so great.

Any who, I'm going to try not to think about that, and just enjoy the last drops of summer..

Painting, weddings, and Kyong Zegarra.

It may seem odd to you to find that I actually made a post. It's been quite some time. So lets just be happy that I finally am.
I shall begin this post talking about one of my many obsessions. Art. Painting in particular.
It's sooo much fun, I highly recommend it. And don't worry if you think your "artistically challenged"
That's the great thing about painting, you can paint ANY thing, and it doesn't matter if it's technically perfect. It's just fun to do.
 Take Picasso for example, even though I'm not really a huge fan of the style,
and you wouldn't think this is the most accurate representation of a cat...
"I paint objects as I think them, not as I see them."- Picasso
So there ya have it. Go forth and paint yourself a creepy cat! 
Heck, paint a ninja pirate riding a zombie unicorn, fighting a robot with a lightsaber while jumping over a rainbow.
or you know, a flower. 


I definitely want to pursue painting, I love it, but I definitely have allot to learn. I think one of the worst things about painting is when you have an idea for something you want to paint, and then when you try to paint it, no matter what you do, you can't get it to look like it does in your head. That's when you throw random paints at it, smear it a bit, and call it a "Abstract".
Another thing about me and painting, I don't paint with an easel and palette. I'm not delicate.
I'm usually on the floor, paint everywhere, music blasting, paint covered sponges and random paint covered tools (also paint covered Kaila) And I WILL use my hands over a paintbrush half the time. Teehee.
 Surprisingly I have allot of people wanting to buy paintings from me. So I should probably get on that.
Since I finally got canvas and paint I have no excuses. 
So instead of writing about painting and being creative. I should probably stop writing and actually do it...

On to something besides painting. My brother got married. The engagement lasted about a month. I guess that's the way to go, no messing around just get it done. It was a good wedding nice and small with only a few close friends and family. I don't understand how some people can spend so much time and money on those giant weddings with a million people you barely even know. Not to mention the thousands of dollars they spend on those giant white puff balls of a dress, that you can only wear ONCE. Just the tiny wedding Zack and Alex had got stressful planning for at times. I can only imagine the stress level of some of those giant weddings. Anyway, back to the point. My bros wedding was supposed to be an outdoor wedding, until the giant thunder storm of doom forced us to have it inside, but all was well. It turned out lovely. But of course the very next day, I woke up to birds chirping and not a cloud in the sky. Nice going mother nature, thanks a heap. 

Now that the wedding is done. I have nothing else to plan for. I hate that feeling when youv'e been planning for something for a long time and it's this huge event, and then the next day when you wake up, it's just like, ok..... NOW WHAT? 
I guess it's time to plan something new. A party perhaps? Maybe I'll go on an adventure... Or I'll just start playing WOW again, then I'll have something to do everyday! muahahaha! Also I'll lose all my friends..
Except 'Kyong Zegarra' cause apparently he wants to be my skype friend. Dear Kyong, will you be my friend even when I become a WOW addict again? Or maybe you even play WOW! Then we can be guildies and everything! :D
Or maybe your a creeper, and I should probably just stick to having real life friends...